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If anyone understands about disability, it is you.

Dear Kim:

Today I was at my therapist's. Therapy. One of the truly great inventions of the 20th century, Thank you, Dr. Freud. Although he was way off on the penis envy stuff.

I do not think most women have looked down as girl children, thought something was lacking and then wished they had a penis. I think a whole lot of us wish we had some of that male power in the world. And that is a whole different kind of envy.

So today I arrived at my therapist's after weeks of being gone and she said, "We need to switch offices and to use another therapist's office upstairs."

(Kim: We never know whether life is dealing us a new hand for a reason, or just by accident. But it doesn't stretch us to move. So much of what we do is by habit.)

I said, "OK." No questions asked. I figured she had her reasons.

Then she nodded to someone else in the waiting room who seemed to be struggling with mobility.

As we climbed up the stairs, she added,"If anyone understands about disability, it is you."


So we waited while some things were shuffled and then went into an office in which I had never been.

I was suffused with a feeling of well being settling onto the couch of this new and different office.

It felt so good to be able to make things easier for someone else.

It felt so good to be flexible and open to a sudden change in direction.

It felt more alive. Routine is comforting but sometimes feels like a limited shelf life.

I suddenly flashed on Rod in L. A. whose rigidity prevents him from having many relationships. I felt a wave of compassion for him and a wave of joy for myself at just being alive.

In sitting in this new and different office, my senses were reawakened. I sat up straighter. I experienced myself differently. And I had a very good session.

Later,

Joan

Tuesday, Feb 28, 2006

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